Before the Winds

Fri, 09 Oct 2009 17:23:42 GMT

I am thinking about grad school.

Missing the coast.
Missing my buddy.

Listening to Bob Dylan,
Drinking coffee,
Sleeping next to my "old lady."
Is everything that I miss.

This is the life I want

Fri, 07 Aug 2009 02:23:06 GMT

http://lovebryan.com/lafleur/2009/08/this-american-wife/

When I decide to get married and have kids I want it to be like this.

Thu, 16 Jul 2009 00:48:15 GMT

I just want to live in the country with Ash; while she crochet's magical creatures, I will sit on the front porch in the rocking chair playing with our hound dogs.

Tue, 16 Jun 2009 01:22:34 GMT

Broke, jobless, and living with my parents. AWESOME! Ash and I have not done to much since I have been back, we took Anthony and Taylor cat fishing last Sunday. Other then that not too much has been going on. I have called on 2 jobs and applied at one last week and have not heard back from any of them, I have a feeling that I should get used to that. It is weird to think that I have been only moved out of my apartment for just over a week. Day by day the time is going by fast but that is it. I keep busy doing stuff around the property for Grandma and working in the garden.

Stress

Thu, 21 May 2009 23:28:44 GMT

So graduation is done and over with but the stress is still ever lingering. For example I woke up from my afternoon nap dreaming about Leonard Woolf and The Village in The Jungle. Why can't my brain realize that I am no longer in school?!

So far I have taken one load of stuff over to C-Wood. All I have left in my apartment are books, a couch, a small desk, and kitchen shit. I wish it was possible to take all of this in one trip but I know that won't happen so I will have to come back later next week.

Summer goals are to read and post on here more regularly, on top of finding a new place and a job.

Tue, 12 May 2009 04:43:37 GMT

I can't seem to think. I 2 of 7 pages of a paper that is due tomorrow and I can't think. Everything I say comes out so damn muddled. I think it is because my brain has shut off without me knowing it. It is already graduated and it does not want to do any more papers. Or it could be due to the fact that I have only had a cinnamon role and some spring rolls all day. I hope that is the case because I am going to make some spaget and see if that fixes the problem.

Wed, 06 May 2009 19:43:25 GMT

Ashleigh took these.

Mon, 04 May 2009 23:02:58 GMT

Lately

Fri, 01 May 2009 05:18:23 GMT

I have been just bummed the fuck out. I feel as if I am a walking Zombie, I am just going through the steps of the day with nothing new happening. I am tired of being in Arcata, I am tired of school, and I am tired of being depressed. If I had more money I would be at the bar every night. The only way to describe the way I feel is that I have the blues, the bummed out broke blues.

Wed, 29 Apr 2009 20:25:32 GMT

I am thinking about buying these tell me what you think www.amazon.com/Dickies-83-294-Indigo-Overall-Color/dp/B001RB3CAG/ref=sr_1_24

What the shit

Wed, 29 Apr 2009 17:32:10 GMT

My fly-fishing trip was canceled because he said it is snowing in Hat Creek. Snowing my ass: http://www.weather.com/weather/local/USCA0465?lswe=Hat%20Creek,%20CA&from=searchbox_localwx

I really need this money but

Sat, 25 Apr 2009 20:15:36 GMT

I really want a tattoo.

Tattoo ideas tell me what you think.

1. A cow with the words "From C-Wood and always up to no good."
2. Words "For friends and family."
3. A owl

I am all that is "Sexy"

Thu, 23 Apr 2009 01:14:54 GMT

Took a quick break from homework to snap some sexy photos of myself.

Today's To-Do List

Wed, 22 Apr 2009 18:54:38 GMT

~~1. Do Dishes~~
~~2. Write Co-Facilitation Write up~~
~~3. Begin Ethnic Studies Final Project~~
~~4. Ethnic Studies Reading Analysis~~
~~5. Ethnic Studies Paragraph Response~~
~~6. Begin Dessa Rose~~
7. Read Three Guineas
~~8. Begin research for Lit Paper~~

Getting shit down today.

Bummer Days

Wed, 22 Apr 2009 17:58:12 GMT

I have been really really stressed out! It has to do with graduating, moving, grades, money, etc. I do not do well with stress, I am often grumpy, and I get depressed from it. I have these constant thoughts running through my head that I will never be able to accomplish the goals that I have set forth in front of me and that cause the said stress.

On top of all this I get bummed out on my birthday for some reason. I don't know why but this wave of dread comes over me the closer my birthday gets. I often think of my upcoming demise on this earth and feel that in the past year of my existence I have not accomplished anything and gone anywhere new. (Wow, I am pretty uplifting this morning.) Since this is my positive attitude I have decided to just go home for my birthday but not do anything. I am not going to treat it like a big deal, my friends and family have always made it a big deal, and for some reason that stresses me out. I find that I get stressed out about the most stupid of shit, it always has to do with aspects of my life that should be fun. For some reason I feel that I need to entertain people on my birthday, therefore I worry if they are having a good time and careless about me and if I am having a good time. College has cause me to over analyze everything.

I will get over it once finals are over and am packing to go home for good.

All I can say ...

Wed, 22 Apr 2009 06:40:22 GMT

... is that I am over it.

This weekend

Tue, 21 Apr 2009 01:56:25 GMT

This weekend my good friend Cierra came over to visit. I had a lot of fun showing her around and taking her friends to the Brewery, a bunch of her friends from C-wood came over for 4/20. It was a good time because Josh came over one night and then a bunch of the old camp curtis neighbor's came over. I saw Conrad at his work and he said he might stop by, I did not think that he told the old crew and that they would come over. It was a nice surprise.

Today, before Cierra left we went to the beach and she was able to find four sand dollars. It was a good find because it was not low tide.

With good times comes bad times and the rest of the afternoon has found me pretty bummed. I miss Ashleigh so damn much that it hurts. I am so fucking tired of this long distance bullshit. I can't wait to get out of Humboldt County, I miss sweating. All day I have been stressing out about everything that needs to be done before I leave here and how a lot of it is not possible because I am so damn broke. I will be 25 this weekend and for some reason I always get really bummed on my birthday. I just don't like it to be a big deal and I get stressed because I feel I have to make everyone happy. On another note I suck at fly-fishing and I suck at school. I am not smart and it is starting to show. I am probably the second worst kid to attempt fly-fishing and it sucks because I spent so much money on a hobby that I suck at. However, I enjoy it a lot, it is strange. I guess it does not matter how good you are at something, it only matters if you enjoy it. I will most likely enjoy it more once I actually get to fish. Enough bitching, sorry.

Later.

Mad River with my Mom and Brother

Sat, 18 Apr 2009 23:51:55 GMT

A list of worries

Sat, 18 Apr 2009 21:50:27 GMT

1. Will I get a job after graduation
2. Will Ash and I find a place.
3. Will I be able to afford it.
4. Will I be able to move out by June 1.
5. Will I be able to go to Idaho for my cousin's graduation.
6. Will I be able to pay all my bills until I graduate.
7. Will I be able to go home for my birthday.
8. Will I be able to afford the Fly Fishing trip.
9. Will I be able to eat until May 16.
10. Will I be able to get into Grad school.
11. Will I be able to get into the credential program.
12. Which one do I choose.

A poem by Anthony James Anderson

Fri, 17 Apr 2009 15:31:25 GMT

Seagulls are in the sky and

Seashells are shy.

The ocean is crashing and

The waves are lashing.

The wind is breezing and

The people are breathing.

Dead fish lye along the shore

The stench goes along with it

Even More.

People are surfing and

The sea Urchins is lurking.

Now its getting dark and

We leave in a Cart.

And next time

We will go to the park.

-My brother wrote this poem while he was here.

Bummer

Thu, 16 Apr 2009 14:20:59 GMT

I have to admit I am quite bummed that Mom and Anthony left this morning. Mom's stomach was really hurting her and she wanted to go home before she felt worse and had to go to the doctor. I am worried about them driving home but I am sure they will make it she will just have to take her time.

The garden in Cottonwood

Wed, 15 Apr 2009 04:06:11 GMT

Anthony helped with the rototiller.

We planted tomatoes!

We planted potatoes.

Once the hard part was done Dad did the watering.

My hobbit feet after all the planting.

After all the chores were done Suki and I watched the Giants game and ate some Tri-Tip.

The many faces of my BFF

Wed, 15 Apr 2009 03:16:43 GMT

Amanda Woodward only lives to get RADICAL!!!

I just woke up

Tue, 14 Apr 2009 15:01:52 GMT

I miss my Girlfriend!!!

Family Time

Tue, 14 Apr 2009 03:09:49 GMT

This weekend ruled! I caught a ride over with my BFFs Amanda and Eric, it was the most fun I have had being a passenger on 299. They dropped me off at Ashleigh's work and I then we headed to C-wood. We hung out with my family for pizza and beer. It was a awesome time! Saturday my mom and little bro picked me up in Redding and we headed home to plant the garden. It was nice hanging out in Cottonwood, the weather was great, I got to play with the dogs, and just plain relax in the sun. Ashleigh picked me up later that night and we had some tri-tip that my Dad BBQ, he never fails, and we then went back to Redding. Easter Sunday was spent laying in bed until we had to go to C-wood to eat the turkey I killed. Mom never fails when it comes to a Turkey Dinner. Once we had finished dinner in Cottonwood we had to get back to Redding for Dinner 2 at Ash's house. Her parents made a pork roast of some sort and I have not been that full in a very long time. After dinner Ash, her dad, and I sat around the table talking about South Africa. Ashleigh's dad was very talkative and he told us all about his time spent in the miltary in S. Africa.

I drove back home today with my mom and little brother. Mom and Anthony are staying here for a week while Anthony is on Spring Break. She wants to get as much as she can out of my place before I move out.

I miss Ashleigh and I won't see her until the weekend of the 25th.

-Aric